Doubt and Faith

My faith has been shaken

But is has not been destroyed

Like a ship battered against the rocks

It still floats as I am cast into a sea of uncertainty

Doubt swirls around me

The waves sloshing against my face

It burns through my consciousness, clouding my vision

Like salt water stinging my eyes

Has anyone seen me?

Are they too busy with their own problems?

Will they even notice that I am missing?

If so, would they even care?

I cling to my faith in others

Because it has helped me through

I hope someone yells out, throws a lifeline

I hope someone notices I'm gone

I must hold tightly to my faith

Dig my hands into it

Without faith there is no purpose

Without purpose there is no point in going on

Is a rope in the water, will I find it?

Will my doubts resign me to sink beneath the waves of despair

I must fight for survival

To my last breath I will have faith

Doubt creeps in like a numbing cold

I feel the rope brush against my hand

Frantically I reach for it

Grasping another chance at life

Someone is at the other end of the line

Trying to pull me to safety

He is faceless but I can feel his compassion

Someone who cares enough to hold fast the line

Is it someone I have wronged in the past

Is it someone I have used for my own selfishness

It doesn't matter to the man holding the rope

He is concerned with saving me, not who I am

Please God let this be true

Let my faith be rewarded

Let it override my doubts and fears

Please let it be him

Only time will remove all of my doubts

Only true faith in him will be the end of this hard journey

Please help him know that I want him to save me

Only he can save me from the turmoil of the sea

I am cold, scared

I feel alone in my struggle to survive

My emotions are real, justified

Heartfelt and desperate for his understanding

Don't let me drown

Don't sacrifice me to the sea