Who knew me?

Hidden

Lost in shadows

Never really seen

Perceived and forgotten

Life lived as a lie

Crushing the soul

Change

Or be forever unnoticed

Like a calf on shaky footing

The world seems frightening

Shelter sought in the arms of a stranger

Someone willing to look honestly

A heart opened wide

Truth exposed

Accepted as beautiful

Finally seen in the light

Risk rewarded

True love a new feeling

Fear of loss entwined together

Fight fear, embrace love

Will sight remain?

Will shadow again rule the world?

The danger worth trying

Or be lost in black

The walls close in

The closet door opens
A wall blocks the way forward
The door closes behind
Locked from the inside

Once out, there is no return

The illusion of safety in the lie extinguished
The courage to live in truth met with a wall of denial
No way forward, no way back

The rules have changed

Confusion rules a new life
I search for an opening
A way to perceive this new life

I push against the wall

It refuses to yield
Stopping my forward progress
Frustrating my desire to grow

Others revel in seeing failure
Rejoice in watching others suffer
They speak of a better life
As they hold the wall from the other side

Subtle cracks appear

Light shines through
Hope is alive
The desire for a way out

The wall stands firm

It seems nothing will break it
The light a simple delusion
No way forward, no way back

The space between shrinks

Crushing tender souls
Soon no room will remain
Everything becomes nothing

 

OK, I finally get it

Where are the people who care?

Do they really exist?

Everyone has an agenda

Everyone is out for themselves

I love you, I respect you, I care about you

Words with no meaning

Words used to open hearts

Lay bare your soul

Once open, the manipulation begins

How can I get what I want for as long as I can?

Smile, laugh, compliment

All while tearing, ripping, breaking

Human nature is no better than animal nature

Hugs were invented so you couldn't see the knife

About to slip into your back

Piercing your heart and soul

Friendship, love, relationship, respect, honesty

All have lost meaning, twisted into ugliness

Their truth buried beneath cold earth

The map to their location lost for eternity

I will not stay in a cold world such as this

I will no longer be a source of joy for others to use

Maybe true hearts are no longer a part of this world

Maybe evolution has eliminated them as weak

I just don't have any more energy to share
My life force drained
Depleted then cast aside
Maybe I should just stop caring