Friday, November 16, 2012

Who knew me?

Lost in shadows
Never really seen
Perceived and forgotten

Life lived as a lie
Crushing the soul
Or be forever unnoticed

Like a calf on shaky footing
The world seems frightening
Shelter sought in the arms of a stranger
Someone willing to look honestly

A heart opened wide
Truth exposed
Accepted as beautiful
Finally seen in the light

Risk rewarded
True love a new feeling
Fear of loss entwined together
Fight fear, embrace love

Will sight remain?
Will shadow again rule the world?
The danger worth trying
Or be lost in black

Thursday, November 15, 2012

The walls close in

The closet door opens
A wall blocks the way forward
The door closes behind
Locked from the inside

Once out, there is no return
The illusion of safety in the lie extinguished
The courage to live in truth met with a wall of denial
No way forward, no way back

The rules have changed
Confusion rules a new life
I search for an opening
A way to perceive this new life

I push against the wall
It refuses to yield
Stopping my forward progress
Frustrating my desire to grow

Others revel in seeing failure
Rejoice in watching others suffer
They speak of a better life
As they hold the wall from the other side

Subtle cracks appear
Light shines through
Hope is alive
The desire for a way out

The wall stands firm
It seems nothing will break it
The light a simple delusion
No way forward, no way back

The space between shrinks
Crushing tender souls
Soon no room will remain
Everything becomes nothing


Monday, November 12, 2012

OK, I finally get it

Where are the people who care?
Do they really exist?
Everyone has an agenda
Everyone is out for themselves

I love you, I respect you, I care about you
Words with no meaning
Words used to open hearts
Lay bare your soul

Once open, the manipulation begins
How can I get what I want for as long as I can?
Smile, laugh, compliment
All while tearing, ripping, breaking

Human nature is no better than animal nature
Hugs were invented so you couldn't see the knife
About to slip into your back
Piercing your heart and soul

Friendship, love, relationship, respect, honesty
All have lost meaning, twisted into ugliness
Their truth buried beneath cold earth
The map to their location lost for eternity

I will not stay in a cold world such as this
I will no longer be a source of joy for others to use
Maybe true hearts are no longer a part of this world
Maybe evolution has eliminated them as weak

I just don't have any more energy to share
My life force drained
Depleted then cast aside
Maybe I should just stop caring