How long should I wait?
How long should I suffer with doubt and fear
I must find a way to move on
Discover how to let all of this pain go
My new life will be over
Cast into a sea of uncertainty
Hoping to find another soulmate
The odds are heavily against me
Tossed and thrown by the whims of the tide
The pieces of my perceived existence are peeled away
Revealing the core of my being
Bruised and battered, broken and black
A soul that still clings to lost love
Trying to reach beyond the injuries
Injuries left open and festering
Hope of healing drives me away
The beginning is unclear
Hard to comprehend
My unanswered faith in humanity
It shall remain steadfast, my anchor
Even alone, I have worth, value
I will hold myself up
Believing in my ability to persevere
I can make it through this, I must
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Thursday, September 27, 2012
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Why do we let this happen over and over again?
Am I going to feel like
this forever?
Will my loneliness ever
subside?
He has been taken from be
by ignorant laws
Strangers have ripped him
from our home
Will they ever understand
what they are doing to us?
Will they ever have their
rights trampled on like this?
I don't care who knows
anymore
He is the man I love, the
man I want to spend the rest of my life with
I will no longer sit idly
by and let their hate and ignorance rule our lives
I will become a force to be
reckoned with
I will channel this
loneliness, use it to impact our lives for the better
Help those ignorant people
understand that love must win, rights must prevail
If we lose this fight, they
will be next
If one population can be
oppressed without the others raising up against it
Then one by one, the
dominoes will fall, one population at a time
If they only understood,
it's not a question of if; it's a question of when
Didn't civil rights teach
us anything?
Before the civil rights movement,
another population was denied all of these rights
They too suffered under the
oppression of the bigoted majority
They were forced to live as
second-class citizens
Keep going back in time,
and the same pattern repeats itself
The majority targets a
small population and legally oppresses them
No other groups come to
their defense
Not until enough of them
have also suffered, but by then it's too late
Wake up people; stop the
bigotry, hate and ignorance before it knocks on your door
We are depending on you; we
need you to join this fight
Alone we may win this
battle, together we cannot lose
We must fight for
EVERYONE'S rights, not just our own
I want him to be able to
come home
I want to make a life with
him
Together we are so much
more than the sum of two people
Please, join us against the oppression and help
me bring him home
Friday, September 21, 2012
Location Unknown
Where is my life?
Has it slipped by without anyone noticing?
What has my impact been?
Will I leave anything behind of lasting human value?
Whose life have I made better?
Did I help at least one person become better than they thought they could?
These are still unanswered questions
Blank spaces in my mind that I have overlooked
When my time is done, how will I have answered these questions?
More important, how will others have answered them for me?
Has it slipped by without anyone noticing?
What has my impact been?
Will I leave anything behind of lasting human value?
Whose life have I made better?
Did I help at least one person become better than they thought they could?
These are still unanswered questions
Blank spaces in my mind that I have overlooked
When my time is done, how will I have answered these questions?
More important, how will others have answered them for me?
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Promises made, Promises broken
The possibilities were endless
It existed, the hope of a new beginning
All the right words were said
Actions are more forceful than simple words
Saying and doing are two parts of the same thing
Making promises only to forget them causes even more damage
Breaking down the last vestiges of hope
Pretending everything is fine does not make it true
Work was required, needed to seal the cracks
Forgiveness was a crucial piece on which to build
Without it vitriol would rule the day and crack the foundation
Forgiveness came with the demand to reconcile
Admit to the mistakes of the past, both known and unknown
Search within to find the reasons and motivations
Finding out what was missing
Together they then work to avoid the same mistakes
Meeting each others' needs equally
Sharing the burdens and the joys of everyday life
Supporting each other, even when no one else will
Is this too much to base a relationship on?
Is it expecting too much to share everything equally?
Their worlds and cultures collided
Their values will never coexist equally
The burden is to heavy for any one man to bear alone
Time and Priority
Time slips by at the
speed of light
Slipping through my
fingers
Like trying to hold
water in my hand
It seeps through
everything
Time forces me to
prioritize my life
Focus on those who
prioritize me
Everything in my life
wants to be first
Like runners in a
race, who will win?
Will I have time for
it all?
How do I decide what
to do first?
So many important
people and things
I don't want to lose
any of them
Time is finite, preset
to limit my life
I am allotted only so
much
I am forced to choose
How will my choices
impact my future?
Decisions made now
will reverberate throughout my existence
Like ripples in the
water, forever moving
Do I base them on
others, subjugating my own needs?
Do I base them on my
own happiness, a life of selfishness?
There has to be a
balance, a way to have them coexist
Decisions must be made
to satisfy both of these human needs
Without balance, I
become a simple organic being, an animal
I choose to have
humanity, to belong to a higher order
My priorities will be
centered on those who do the same
I will use my limited
time to love those who love me in return
I will focus my energy
on helping others
Others who I hope will
help even more people if they can
I will not neglect
those in my life who mean the most to me
I will cherish them;
keep them close
I will honor my
commitments and promises
None to be made in
haste; without thought
Time is too valuable
to waste on those who would hurt me
Those who will not
honor their promises and commitments
Their motivation in question,
selfish and uncaring
Like a cancer to the
soul, they will be cut out, exercised
Hold on to me, and I will hold on to you
Let me go, and I will
move on
Like my decisions
about priority and time
People in my life will
be forced to choose, prioritize
Basing my decisions on
love and humanity
I see a future filled
with possibilities
People of like minds
will be drawn to me
They will enrich my
life in unexpected ways
I will invest my
limited time in seeking them out
No longer will I idly
waste this precious resource
The seconds are
ticking by, unstoppable, relentless
I will move with the
rhythm and stop fighting against it
Friday, September 14, 2012
Doubt and Faith
My
faith has been shaken
But
is has not been destroyed
Like
a ship battered against the rocks
It
still floats as I am cast into a sea of uncertainty
Doubt
swirls around me
The
waves sloshing against my face
It
burns through my consciousness, clouding my vision
Like
salt water stinging my eyes
Has
anyone seen me?
Are
they too busy with their own problems?
Will
they even notice that I am missing?
If
so, would they even care?
I
cling to my faith in others
Because
it has helped me through
I
hope someone yells out, throws a lifeline
I
hope someone notices I'm gone
I
must hold tightly to my faith
Dig
my hands into it
Without
faith there is no purpose
Without
purpose there is no point in going on
Is
a rope in the water, will I find it?
Will
my doubts resign me to sink beneath the waves of despair
I
must fight for survival
To
my last breath I will have faith
Doubt
creeps in like a numbing cold
I
feel the rope brush against my hand
Frantically
I reach for it
Grasping
another chance at life
Someone
is at the other end of the line
Trying
to pull me to safety
He
is faceless but I can feel his compassion
Someone
who cares enough to hold fast the line
Is
it someone I have wronged in the past
Is
it someone I have used for my own selfishness
It
doesn't matter to the man holding the rope
He
is concerned with saving me, not who I am
Please
God let this be true
Let
my faith be rewarded
Let
it override my doubts and fears
Please
let it be him
Only
time will remove all of my doubts
Only
true faith in him will be the end of this hard journey
Please
help him know that I want him to save me
Only
he can save me from the turmoil of the sea
I
am cold, scared
I
feel alone in my struggle to survive
My
emotions are real, justified
Heartfelt
and desperate for his understanding
Don't
let me drown
Don't
sacrifice me to the sea
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